In the dream, I’m a smoker, even though in real life I’m not. In the dream, I’m wearing a baggy jacket and have 1/2 dozen loose cigarette butts in each pocket but no full cigarette. I’m with a bunch of smokers and ask them for one and they all say they don’t have any. I say it’s okay, it doesn’t matter, I’m quitting anyways.
Then an ex-boyfriend arrives. In real life he’s an ex but in the dream I am still trying to salvage the relationship. I ask him if he wants to catch the ferry with me and go do something off the island. At first he disagrees but he concedes with my insistence and he even offers to pay.
I notice right away he starts taking photos with his phone which is a strange & uncharacteristic behaviour of his. He does it so much that he has no emotional connection or interaction with me at all as we wait in line for the ferry, board and start traveling. I see a huge piece of ice float down a river and point it out and he takes a photo and I hear him say, “This one is for you (meaning me)” and then he takes another one saying “And this second one is for you (meaning another woman)” and he sends the second pic to someone.
After seeing him do this 3 times I confront him with it. He doesn’t deny it. I say why didn’t he just tell me and we could have ended amicably. He said he couldn’t tell me. He didn’t want to hurt me.
So I tell him I’m not going on this trip with him and when the ferry stops I board a returning boat to go back home. He continues on.
I feel a mixture of sadness and relief.
When I get back, it’s too late to make it all the way home so I stay at an Air BnB which has a lot of others staying there too. Recollection of this part of the dream is foggy. It seems we were moving furniture around. There were a lot of people but I don’t recall more than that.
16 October 2017
If Peace is the goal then what next when it is achieved?
Three months ago I dreamed of swimming in an ocean while a huge tanker ship passed by near enough for me to feel the wake in the water but not close enough to knock me over. You can read the dream at this link.
When I wrote about the dream afterwards I didn’t have a lot to say about it and actually felt a lot of Peace. If Peace is the absence of the need to act quickly in response to someone’s negativity than that could be what I was feeling.
However, now that it’s October and I look back at that dream, I can say that an enormous life change was just days away from that dream. Less than two weeks after that ship dream I decided to move out of the home we’d loved for three years and the move was a result of a person/situation which was like a big ol’ ship threatening to knock me down and drown me.
If I would have asked more questions about the ship when it showed up in the dream might I have been able to decipher the threat sooner and choose something else besides moving? At the time, I could see no other solution. I could see no clear path. I didn’t feel unsafe. I didn’t know the big threat that was looming.
But I see it now and just find it interesting and thought I’d write to share.
13 July 2017
I’m swimming in an ocean. It’s night and I’m in great depths but it’s not cold and I’m not the least frightened. An enormous ship is a distance away from me to the right. Close enough to feel the vibrations of its engine but far enough away to not be moved by its current or wake.
The feeling is this: I’m happy just where I am. I don’t feel like going toward the ship or away from it. I don’t have anything to go diving for. I don’t have anyone in need of rescue. I don’t want to go back to the shore and I don’t want to go in further depth.
There is someone to my right swimming. At first I thought she needed help but I see now she doesn’t. The feeling I get from her is that she is my twin, my double, like a mirror image of me.
But there’s no threat from her nor does she need anything. So we’re just swimming.
Analysis: Okay, so this dream is neither “good” nor “bad.” This is a new one for me.
There was a lot more before and after this scene which I remembered for brief moments before I sat to write but then the images escaped me so that means there is some ego-protection going on that is just about parts of myself not wanting to remember things which are a bit painful in nature. That’s okay. That’s normal. That’s human.
So there’s slight vibrations from the BIG ship which I am picking up on. So I can work with that.
To dream of an ocean is like dreaming about a metaphor for life in general. It’s about relationships. It’s about being able to dive deeply into relationships, to dive deeply into life.
I’ve dreamed of a scene just like this before, but the big ship was sinking and I was trying to rescue people to save them from drowning. It’s a bit refreshing to be swimming in an ocean of life and not have anyone to save, not even myself. Metaphorically, it’s an emotional condition I’ve wanted to experience for a while and now here I am, experiencing it.
All I can think is to say this must be what Peace feels like.
And I really love it.
16 February 2017
In the dream, I was on a huge tanker ship in a warm place like the Caribbean. Someone else was trying to steer it but it was getting off course and so they called me in to help. I ran from one end of the ship to the next and just got there in time. But I was able to get it back on track.
In another scene I was on a sandy shore. It was warm and refreshing. There was a lot going on and I was trying to make sense of it, helping where I could. It was busy.
- getting ready to run a race
- also in some Taekwondo competition
- i go into a public shower room
- am able to shower but don’t have a towel and only my running clothes to put back on
- on my way back to the race outside i see 2 friends
- they tell me they had a dream and as i listen i hear the same negative figure showed up in both their dreams, i consider how to interpret this
- i get back to the race and see a friend, Mermaid
- she’s smiling as always
- then i am in a vacation spot with gracie, i look around and see a huge water playground and i realize we can afford this now, i know how to take a trip without very much money and how to enjoy it
- i feel happy about that
there’s a lot of positives in this dream.
before the vision your dream gave you was about flying. generally people really like to be able to fly but while that is slightly appealing to you, this dream is much more of a personalized vision of happiness.
running a race, doing well in a competition, having a close friend around, and being able to take your daughter on vacation. these are all images of happiness.
the biggest problem comes when it’s time to shower. getting in doesn’t seem to be a problem but getting out is. no towel.
what is a towel?
a towel is used to dry off the skin after getting wet. not having one is like a symbol for not having a way to transition from the wet shower to the business of running.
most people would think of a towel as necessary. but for you, you know you can live without it and its not a big deal.
you’re dream wants you to think of it as a big deal now. not having a towel is stopping you from running as well as you could with one. it even effects your dreams.
so you can ask yourself “where in my life am I without something basic which others think is mandatory and I think is optional?”
what is a shower in this case?
and what is a race?
how can having a towel to dry off help you succeed in the race? or do well in a compition?
When you figure this out, you will be able to do more playful fun things with Gracie and others you care about.
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