Category Archives: Torture

Dreamwork: How Am I Metaphorically Kidnapping & Drugging My Self?

08 May 2017

Well, in the dream, it begins when I’m enjoying a concert. I see the keys melting, which really defies the laws of physics and yet I figure out a way to stop it from happening. Then the keys come apart and even though I don’t have technical background in the key’s mechanics I still figure out a way to fix them.

This leads me to be in a car driving by a location where a crime is taking place.

Once I’m spotted, I’m kidnapped & drugged.

That’s the end of the dream.

Dream of Being Jailed

28 August 2017

When something negative shows up in a dream, something like being jailed, then it’s good to start off with a question such as, “How am I jailing my Self?”

What this does it take you out of the rut of feeling like a victim and you get your power back.

In a recent dream I was temporarily imprisoned in something comparable to a juvenile detention center. It felt more like a retreat than a jail except I couldn’t leave if I wanted to but the facilities were excellent. I didn’t have a sense of why I was there or when I would get out.

When I was young, the adults who I lived with used to use the punishment of “going to my room” as the ultimate “fix” but unfortunately the rules were arbitrary so it was never entirely clear to me what kept me out of my room or what put me in it. Additionally, someone else could do something really wrong and that would get me sent to my room for some unjust reason.

Once imprisoned in my room, it could last for hours, or days. There was never a clear distinction about when I’d get to come out. It was sort of assumed I was banished to my room for an entire day. But sometimes I’d get called out for dinner.

When I got to the table I would be a bit dizzy from the lights and have a slight head ache from the stuffiness of a room. I’d feel like I had over-slept and my thoughts were not clear or focused. I’d feel like I had a cold or something even though I know I didn’t but the fuzzy-ness was the same.

Only the lure of food could keep me there in that cluttered & dusty dining room and I would not allow myself the privilege of even thinking about what to do next or how to get away from these monsters who entrapped & enslaved me.

The only safe place seemed to be to retreat back into my room. So like a trained beast, with the wildness beat out of him, I’d just often times go back to my room after dinner even though there was a hint that I could have stayed out now if I wanted too. I seem to recall my sister coming out of her room more often than I did as I can recall hearing her giggling and laughing with my mom.

So my sister’s negative actions got me punished to my room. And then I just stayed there for hours & days while she and my mom bonded in happy ways.

Then later, when I was a teen, my mom once said, “It just seems like you have built a wall that you will never let me pass.” And she said it as though it were a mystery.

How strange.

Dream: Stalked, Drugged & Kidnapped by CIA gang

08 May 2017

I am watching a Coldplay concert, which if it were real life would be one of the highlights of my life for sure, and when I step out for a moment to the main lobby I check my keys and find the long metal part of the key is melting. It’s just softening and becoming bendy. I toy with it a bit and then it hardens again. But when I return to the auditorium it melts again. I realize it’s the heat of the room which is making it melt.

I go back to the lobby to cool it down. Now parts of the key have disassembled. I return to be seated with the audience and am working on fixing the key. I’m thinking about how if I don’t fix it I do not have a spare one to go home with and I’ll be stuck in this city with my friend who I carpooled with.

Then the key shaft breaks off entirely from the base. It really freaks me out but as I play with it more I think I can keep it together long enough to put it in my car. So I tell my friend I’ll meet her out there.

I go out and insert the key. It turns the car on but then parts of the car are not working and its riding down the street. I pass by a school yard and see people falling, teachers are falling to the ground. I wonder if I should stop and help or keep going. Even if I wanted to stop I’m not sure the car would. I decide to stop and just check it out.

But as soon as I do a street-clothed CIA operative grabs me from the car, covers my head, and brings me into a locked room. I tell myself that even if they drug me, that my mind is stronger than their drug, and in fact it’s true. Three or four men enter and do something to me which disorients me for a moment but I quickly gain control. I realize I’m naked and I locate my shirt and put on pants which are far too big but at least they are pants.

The guard on the outside of the door sees me and comments and I try to speak but find I can’t. It’s the effect of the drug so I just murmur the words and it appears he is like-minded and understands and is trying to help.

I get back into the bed to try to relax and try to make it look like their drug has been successful but then the three return. One puts a pillow over my head and one holds my feet down and one puts a needle into my left thigh. I feel the long needle deep into my muscle and I feel the effect of the drug buzz through my body. Suddenly I feel like I”m on a roller coaster ride and am zooming around.

But then I take control of my mind again, bring my awareness back to my body and realize they are still there in the room. I don’t move. They think I am unconscious but I am listening to what they are planning next.

Then I wake up.

The analysis for this dream will be posted at another time.

How To Deal With Nightmarish Figures in a Dream & Real Life

Here is an example of a nightmarish figure getting her way in a dream.

I will use this dream to explain how to apply principles of the science of dreamwork to transformation.

First of all, whenever there is a negative dream where I feel physical pain in the dream then it is a signal to me that this is a really big issue for me and it also signals to me that the likelihood is that I’ll experience something in day-to-day life which will be a really big challenge.

The second thing to keep in mind is that the solution is the positive opposite of the negative in the dream. In the dream, someone grabs hold of my hand and squeezes their nails into my skin. At the same time, they give a look on their face of being friendly and they smile at the others. It appears to them she is holding my hand offering comfort perhaps meanwhile her nails are like 5 daggers into my skin.

So what to do?

It means the positive solution is for me to reach out to someone in a positive way and press in with encouragement. This is sometimes a challenge to do because our culture is so focused on the negatives. But that is the solution.

The third thing to do then is to think of where in real life do I have an opportunity to offer encouragement to someone? I can think of the person in the dream as a metaphor and not think of her as the real person in real life and then I can apply this idea of being really positive to others in the same way I can be really positive to her.


How To Deal With Torturous Conditions in the Dream World and in Real Life

To be confronted with something we don’t entirely trust is sometimes torturous

If we think of the place we travel to when sleeping as another world this helps to give perspective. Sometimes we see ourselves in situations which are torturous. In a dream or real life, we can also find ourselves in situations which elicit memories of strong feelings of fear or terror.

The real big challenge with torture is that it is the intentional harming of of someone else by an individual or group of individuals who set out to dis-empower another. If you have been abused in your life, or if you have encountered a narcissistic person, or if you have gone through a war you will likely know exactly what I mean when I say the things that these people say or do can really cause significant duress.

Even worse is that sometimes these sick individuals, who set out only to make you look bad, will actually get pleasure in seeing you in emotional or physical pain. Can there be anything less humane than that?

So what to do then? If you find yourself experiencing horrific conditions where someone is intentionally harming you in a dream or in real life, what can you do? This article gives some suggestions.

To begin with here is a definition of torture:

Torture (from the Latin tortus, “twisted”) is the act of deliberately inflicting physical or psychological pain on an organism in order to fulfill some desire of the torturer or compel some action from the victim. Torture, by definition, is a knowing and intentional act; deeds which unknowingly or negligently inflict pain without a specific intent to do so are not typically considered torture.

In a dream recently, I was in a situation where someone who was supposed to have a role of support and care was actually doing water torture on me. Someone else was getting pleasure from watching me fight for my life. This dream is a reminder of the trauma I experienced in the past and signals a recognition of how far I’ve come in that no one ever does this type of thing in real life to me anymore.

The fear is real though.

In real life, no one likes to be put into a situation where they are made to be humiliated or degraded. Because I am a public figure I am always subject to the possible persecutions from others. That is just part of the territory as a published author.

What is really special and unique about the dream is that even though I nearly drown on the water, I still sit up and am fine. It surprises my torturers. What did they think? They would kill me? They were trying to get information from me…what did they think? They could just take it?

The fact that I survived in the dream just fine says I am really good at being able to go through potentially challenging situations and come out the other side unscathed.

There are 5 keys to being able to do this –

  1. See the End in the Beginning
  2. Stay Calm. Stay Strong. Stay Grateful.
  3. Remember that you can observe the negative in a situation without having to absorb it
  4. Keep a strong and clear vision of what you are going for in your mind at all times.
  5. Know your boundaries, reinforce them, and keep them strong & clear too.

In real life, there are many people who are dealing with a negative figure in their lives. That negative person will use any method in order to try to gain control over the individual’s life. The root causes is that there was trauma in their early life and they closed themselves off so much that they no longer function as a typical human would, governed by compassion and service.

Instead, they are governed by intense feelings of shame and fear. They are willing and able and capable of destroying anyone on their path to what they want. Whether it’s power or reputation or money or a relationship. They will hunt after their goal and seek to destroy anyone in its way.

It doesn’t matter though. Because in the dream and in real life people like this have very little power anymore. The world has changed. The vast majority of people’s hearts and minds have changed. Opportunities and possibilities for growth and progress are abundant now. So even if a negative figure shows its ugly snake head and tries to attack, it just can’t do its dirty work anymore.

It’s powerless now and just doesn’t want to admit it.

So to answer the question of this article – how to deal with nightmarish negative figures and the dirty environments they try to create? The solution is simple. When you stay True To Your Self and when you stay focused on your very positive vision for yourself and others whom you love then you will find yourself unharmed by anyone. And even if a hint of the old kind of stuff shows up, you’ll see it quickly, before it can cause any damage, and you can change course accordingly.

Here is a video to explain in more detail what I mean by this.