Category Archives: Kidnapping

Dreamwork: How Am I Metaphorically Kidnapping & Drugging My Self?

08 May 2017

Well, in the dream, it begins when I’m enjoying a concert. I see the keys melting, which really defies the laws of physics and yet I figure out a way to stop it from happening. Then the keys come apart and even though I don’t have technical background in the key’s mechanics I still figure out a way to fix them.

This leads me to be in a car driving by a location where a crime is taking place.

Once I’m spotted, I’m kidnapped & drugged.

That’s the end of the dream.

Dream: Stalked, Drugged & Kidnapped by CIA gang

08 May 2017

I am watching a Coldplay concert, which if it were real life would be one of the highlights of my life for sure, and when I step out for a moment to the main lobby I check my keys and find the long metal part of the key is melting. It’s just softening and becoming bendy. I toy with it a bit and then it hardens again. But when I return to the auditorium it melts again. I realize it’s the heat of the room which is making it melt.

I go back to the lobby to cool it down. Now parts of the key have disassembled. I return to be seated with the audience and am working on fixing the key. I’m thinking about how if I don’t fix it I do not have a spare one to go home with and I’ll be stuck in this city with my friend who I carpooled with.

Then the key shaft breaks off entirely from the base. It really freaks me out but as I play with it more I think I can keep it together long enough to put it in my car. So I tell my friend I’ll meet her out there.

I go out and insert the key. It turns the car on but then parts of the car are not working and its riding down the street. I pass by a school yard and see people falling, teachers are falling to the ground. I wonder if I should stop and help or keep going. Even if I wanted to stop I’m not sure the car would. I decide to stop and just check it out.

But as soon as I do a street-clothed CIA operative grabs me from the car, covers my head, and brings me into a locked room. I tell myself that even if they drug me, that my mind is stronger than their drug, and in fact it’s true. Three or four men enter and do something to me which disorients me for a moment but I quickly gain control. I realize I’m naked and I locate my shirt and put on pants which are far too big but at least they are pants.

The guard on the outside of the door sees me and comments and I try to speak but find I can’t. It’s the effect of the drug so I just murmur the words and it appears he is like-minded and understands and is trying to help.

I get back into the bed to try to relax and try to make it look like their drug has been successful but then the three return. One puts a pillow over my head and one holds my feet down and one puts a needle into my left thigh. I feel the long needle deep into my muscle and I feel the effect of the drug buzz through my body. Suddenly I feel like I”m on a roller coaster ride and am zooming around.

But then I take control of my mind again, bring my awareness back to my body and realize they are still there in the room. I don’t move. They think I am unconscious but I am listening to what they are planning next.

Then I wake up.

The analysis for this dream will be posted at another time.

Kidnapped by the CIA: The Key To The Key of Having Courage & Confidence

10 May 2017

In a recent dream, I faced one of my biggest fears – being kidnapped & drugged by the CIA.

Interestingly, in real life I was kidnapped and drugged by the RCMP in 2012 so the first thing I have to realize is that this dream is also about bringing up the old emotions around trauma I experienced in real life.


At the time, I was thinking, “They’ve made a mistake. They’ve got the wrong person. This can’t be happening to me.” But no, they targeted me and it had long-lasting effects which still complicate things for me to this day.

Once you see what it’s like to be kidnapped, drugged and locked up without your consent then a part of you really doesn’t want to go back to that.

But yet, a part of me is so passionate about the work that I do that I will keep doing it, even if I get kidnapped, drugged and locked up again.

So what is it that allows me to keep Couragously going forward, despite such horrific persecution?

The key is about staying cool and collected even when others are heating things up with their anger.

How do I stay cool and collected even when others are angry?

It helps to remember that their anger is not them. Their anger and the bad behaviour associated with it is their ego. Their ego is active because they are afraid of getting hurt. It’s really as simple as that.

You can disarm any oppressor by seeing their humanity through their outrage.

When I was a child, and an adult I trusted would become very angry and yell loudly at me, so loud I felt nearly deaf by the piercing range of it, I found if I looked at him with my heart open then I could see a part of him which he didn’t know I could see.

When I gazed at him with my inner eye, or my heart, then I could see his heart. I could see it as though it was on the other side of a veil, like he didn’t want to be acting this way, that he was trying to stop yelling but couldn’t, that he was scared, that he was sorry, and that he never wanted to hurt me.

I could see that at the same time that he was yelling at me he was also begging me with his eyes and within his soul to forgive him. I could see into the Truth of things. And so it was that I never hated him, even though I hated a lot of the things he did.

In truth, through his anger he taught me not to be angry. Through his cruelty I learned Compassion. Through his violence I learned Peace.

So it is the same today. If someone from the CIA were to attack me, I’m quite sure I could look into their eyes and soul and see their humanity. I could love, forgive and be at peace with them.

I wouldn’t mind if I didn’t have to experience that kind of thing again…but if I do…I know I will be okay.

The Key to the Key of Courage and Confidence is Detachment and Empowerment!