Category Archives: Death

My Eagle Dream

July 18, 2018

Last night I dreamed of being on a First Nations reservation. There was lots going on. Some sitting by a bonfire. Some getting ready to go somewhere. Some playing games. I heard something and looked up and saw an eagle soaring very high above the trees. It was circling around. Others started noticing too. Then another eagle joined the first and it was even higher than the previous one. They circled around and around high above us. I just stared at them, not being able to take my eyes off them because of their beauty. Then I noticed the first one had something in its mouth and as it flew lower and closer to us I could see it was a tiger. I was stunned. “What?!” An eagle carrying a tiger in its mouth!? Impossible, I said to myself. “But there it is! Impossible yet it’s happening.”

By now the eagles caught the attention of the others and an elder beside me to the left was looking up at the eagles and then doing something with the sticks in front of her. She closed her eyes briefly as though in prayer or supplication. I glanced back up and sure enough, there truly was a tiger in the eagle’s beak, being carried in the way a mother cat carries her kittens.

Soon the eagles landed in a clearing nearby and before we knew it the tiger was dropped and surprisingly it was still alive. It started to run at us but we had lots of time to pack our belongings and get in the car although it was packed and we all  just barely fit. The elder was giving us instructions the whole time.

There was a swampy area over further off to the left and at some point we had been playing a game over there, some sort of simple games like catch and tag. I had jumped in for a bit and got out, thinking I’d go back in later, but when we were getting in the car I realized I couldn’t go back to the water today.

So that was the end of the dream, getting into the car, watching a tiger run at us from across a field, with the eagles close by on its heels.

Being a Positive Avalanche

May 09, 2018

The other day I dreamed of running away from an avalanche of snow. I was able to get to safety with a friend and we joked around happily afterwards. Snow and cold in dreams is about the “cold” types of behaviours people do when they are filled with ego and seeking power, not thinking of how they affect others but only going for their own best interests. A great way to deal with this kind of issue in real life with people is to become like a “positive avalanche” sharing an abundance of encouragement, support and enthusiasm. That’s what I’m doing when I work with prisoners.

Discovering a Crime & a Cover Up & Getting Away

13 October 2017

In the dream, I’m in a large house in a newly developing subdivision with many houses still under construction. To my dismay, there are about a dozen dead bodies in bags lined up in a row in one of the rooms. My questioning to the people involved leads me to understand that someone has killed these people and then will be demolishing the house to hide what they have done.

I leave the house wondering if I should try to stop them, report them, or ignore it and leave it all behind.

As I wonder through the streets, I end up at my dentist’s place and he takes me in for an appointment even though it’s 2am. He does x-rays and tells me my teeth are doing fine and I no longer need braces. He reminds me to wear a mouth guard for when I grind my teeth at night. I’m happy the appointment goes well.

When I leave, I find my mother waiting for me and she takes me back to her place. She is so cruel with everything she says and she seems to be mocking me. Even when I show kindness she doesn’t take it to be kindness and she shows cruelty instead. This continues on for a while and then when I’ve had enough I say I’m leaving and this gets her even more annoyed. She towers over me, shouting and speaking words which hurt my heart and I push her back. I have to push her several times and finally get her to move back enough away from the door so I can leave.

When I leave I go to the road and a taxi is waiting for me. I’m in Fort Erie, the town I grew up in childhood, and I look around and see the poverty of the place. The driver is African and by his stories and condition I conclude he is more skilled than what his job is and that he is barely able to support his family on this taxi income. At one point though he turns sideways in the seat and is looking through photos on the seat and no one is driving the cab. Surprisingly it stays on course though and eventually he takes the wheel again and brings me to where I want to go.

DreamWORK – It’s not all fun & games … but is worth it in the end

17 August 2017

I’m going to write this to give you an idea of the way I work with a nightmare in very specific detail.

The dream scenario was that I was in my room and sensed something was wrong in my daughter’s room. When I went into her room I found a man had invaded our house & was standing over her with a shotgun pointed to her face. I froze.

So to work through this dream first I have to understand the threat of the man & the gun.

Since it is a man unknown to me then this means it is a cultural issue and it not showing up in one specific man who I know but that all men have this potential threatening part to them. That’s pretty easy to understand since we live in a culture which is still male-dominated and incredibly debilitating to and for women.

I freeze in the dream and that means that the solution will be about my learning to move, spiritually and literally.

So how do I get out of the mental habit of freezing when I am threatened? How do I learn to keep moving even when things are a bit scary?

That’s where the WORK part of dreamwork comes in.

First I worked through the issue in a session with Richard Hastings from Dreams For Peace. He gave me some homework to do and now whenever I feel myself getting stuck I just do the homework.

Here is an example:

I can ask myself:

  1. What is the biggest challenge I am facing today? or What is the biggest challenge facing my daughter today?
  2. How does it make me freeze?
  3. When do I remember this type of challenge first showing up (usually in childhood or teen years)?
  4. What did I do in the past to deal with this challenge? What can I do differently now?

In this case, the fear I have is that someone will hurt me or my daughter. This is a natural fear any mother has. My own personal fear is heightened because I face many financial obstacles which leave us a bit more vunerable than if we had a bit more money at our disposal.

So I can think about who in my daughter’s life may hurt her and how and then I can think of what I can do differently so that this can be prevented.

The solution may bring up my own fears and so I need to work through those before or at the same time as preventing her from getting hurt.

As I resolve my own fears I can then easily move forward to ensure she is protected and safe.

Resolving my fears involves a visualization exercise.

I can recall someone who hurt me in the past and I can think about how I may fear they may hurt me or her again.

Then I can just turn down the volume on their negative voice and even erase the image of them in my mind as though they are disappearing. And then the fear is not so strong.

When they are gone out of my mind I can move forward exactly as I want and need feeling fearless and brave.

This is one of the types of exercises I do to work through a fear which showed up in a dream and to learn a new skill which increases my own confidence & courage.

When I move forward in this positive way many good opportunities open up for me and my daughter! 16507903_688004734714732_4993852702777196850_n

How To Deal With the Fear of Falling out of Grace

IMG_1149 11 August 2017

As I was working through an issue which showed up in my dream this week, I realized I have a fear of falling out of Grace & Bounty. It seems to come from having been abandoned in my childhood by people who I trusted & then again in my young adult years by someone close to me. It’s natural that after having been abandoned before in painful ways that I would fear it happening again.

The key to working through this type of fear, whether it stems from fear of abandonment from parents, or a spouse or an employer, is to hold a positive vision of where your life is going and hang onto that vision no matter what happens in life.

A few days after having a dream about being caught up in a current which was leading to a Huge waterfall, then I had a dream about being caught in a current which was just a natural flow in a lake. In the first dream, there was just FEAR and all I could do was scramble to the river bank to get out, even if it meant leaving a loved one behind. But in the second dream, the current was taking me deeper out into a lake and I had very little fear except for the speed with which the water was taking me. When others were entering the lake, I wanted to caution them strongly but I knew it wasn’t life or death.

So the key to transforming this fear is to be like a positive current in my life flowing out into a lake with others I care about. When I look at it that way, I can see lots of ways which I can move forward quickly and with force but yet with a flow and Grace at the same time.

So this is how I can take what was a fear of abandonment and turn it into an opportunity to become even closer to those I care about and take our relationship to an even greater depth than it was before.