Dec. 04, 2018
- Get an idea
- Fear of it not working out comes up (fear of abandonment/Mother of all Fears)
- Give into the fear & give up on the goal
- Go for the goal but so unorganized can’t succeed.
- Back to bed with illness
- Get an idea
- See the obstacles
- Feel foggy minded, unfocused
- Move slowly thru the fog in meditation
- Envision the solution, getting to the other side
- Feel Enthusiastic & Empowered with Determination to get there
- Take an immediate step towards it’s accomplishment as though it’s already done.
The animal which shows up in dreams when working thru this pattern, when developing Enthusiasm & Empowerment is the horse.
September 18, 2018
In the dream I am walking down a dark street with the only light being from the home screen of my phone. Then a horse comes galloping by on my left, whizzes by leaving me wonder what it was but I figure out it was a horse.
Then I’m at some sort of gallery, a gathering. I ask someone to pay $80 saying I’ll promote something or them and they agree but then the next day when the event comes I hadn’t been able to do the promotion and no one came and I enjoyed the learning but the people were disappointed to not get the turn out they felt they had purchased. I tried to show them what we learned from the situation but they were annoyed. Then I realized what we had learned could/would go into the book and I planned to tell them they were going to be featured in Chapter 8.
A bunch of stuff was going on, food trucks coming and going. There were 20 piglets ordered which were going to be roasted for the evening meal and it was making me sick to think about it. I turned my head & covered my eyes.
18 July 2017
In the dream, I met a King. I had run down the stairs of an enormous Cathedral to look out a window and watch an enormous & elaborate procession of the horses and royalty. When I turned to go back upstairs I saw the King was coming down the steps towards me. I realized I was in the wrong place and when He got to the bottom level I bowed to him and I apologized, feeling ashamed. He said, “It’s okay, Rachel, my child. Your curiosity and playfulness amuses me. But now you know to be careful where you go.” And with that He exited and went to the carriage with a dozen horses leading. Then they left.