Category Archives: Investigating

My Dream About Smoking

October 27, 2018

In the dream, there’s a lot going on. I’m outside in a large open space, maybe like a large family campground, something like that. The atmosphere is friendly and open. I’m walking from one area to another and then I notice a group of people have all started smoking. I say, “Oh, it’s time to smoke is it?” And I decide to join them thinking if we all smoke at the same time then it won’t bother the non-smokers as much because there’s no secondhand smoke inbetween. When I reach for my own cigarettes I discover they aren’t in my pocket. My sister is there to my left walking beside me and when I start looking for where I put my cigarettes she mocks me and says, “Oh Rachel, we’re smoking now, are we?”

“It’s none of your business,” I tell her and I walk away thinking about where I may have left them. I consider getting a cigarette from one of the other smokers but don’t want to appear that I have none of my own but also by the time it takes me to look for my own and I retrieve them then they will all be done and I’ll be smoking alone anyways. It’s like I have to decide to look foolish and ask for one or look foolish and smoke alone. I decide to keep looking for my own.

I find them in a strange room and I can’t recall the details of what made it strange but it was unusual somehow. Anyway, I found them and go back to the others and I have time to smoke while they are and we finish together at relatively the same time.

My Dream of a Psychopath Covering Up a Death

June 10, 2018
Last night I dreamed of being in a large hotel-type place and I was in a room with an elderly woman who was handicapped physically but very alert & intelligent mentally. It’s not clear why I was there although it felt like she knew something about a crime her husband was involved in or something like that and I was getting info from her at the same time as helping her with some of her physical ailments.
Anyway, at one point she positioned herself on the couch in a bit of a contortion and she asked me to massage sore areas on her back which I proceeded to do (at that time someone came up from behind me but I didn’t pay them any attention) but then she turned herself around without alerting me and she lost her balance and she hit her head on the floor and when I reached to help her I could see the blow killed her. I quickly put her head back on the couch pillow and shouted to the front desk to call 911 even though I knew she needed a coroner not paramedics.
I stood up and went to the door and the attendant gave me thumbs up that paramedics were on their way and when I turned to look back I found that the elderly woman was sitting up in a wheel chair. She was fine. I was confused because she had been dead and I approached her cautiously and turned her around towards me. Then I saw the woman was black and shorter and was not at all the woman who I had just been talking with but the person in the room was saying this was her and I knew it wasn’t. On the one hand I was relieved because her not being dead was better for me because I didn’t want the questions from paramedics since I was the last one to see her alive. If she was not dead then I wouldn’t get questioned. But this woman was not the same woman and the man was up to some sort of hoax and he wanted me to play along. I was afraid of him and I had no idea what to do next and how to be prepared for when the paramedics arrived. How would I explain what was going on? They weren’t even trained to be able to really understand what I would try to convey. The man in the room was a psychopath and he wanted to make me look crazy. I was trying to think of how to tell the truth of what had happened without him harming me or the woman he was bribing to lie and i was wondering what happened to the real woman? Where did he hide her.
So this is another trauma-related dream coming from working with the prisoners. This is about the psychopath behaviour. They are very good at staying in the shadows and then messing things up when they think no one is looking. They also think they can get away with murder. In my dream, I saw the truth of the situation and was not going to let him get away with it.

My Dream of Being Arrested & Released

 

09 February 2018

I open the door to my house and three police officers are there. They walk through the doorway, taking advantage of my surprised state, asking questions about my name and identity and talking and before I know it, my hands are behind my back and charges are being read.

Finally I get over the disorientation and I ask, “What is this about?” The head officer responds that, “This is because you know too much about John.” He’s referring to John Watson.

So then I understand what’s going on and I ask more questions and explain in more detail and they realize that they thought I had a lot more to do with a certain crime than I actually did. So they reduce or drop the charges all together and they leave.

The qualities of a good police officer are friendliness & assertiveness. This dream is about developing those qualities even more now.

To read more dreams around the theme of waking up to the need to develop friendliness & assertiveness, click on this link.

Imagine how much more peaceful the world would be if everyone had a little more friendliness & calm assertiveness.

My Dream of Delivering a Pregnant Woman to the Hospital to Deliver a Baby

04 February 2018

I am in a large conference room when suddenly a woman, wearing a bright orange shirt and clearly 9 or 10 months pregnant stands up and says her water just broke. While everyone else is staring at her in shock, I grab my keys from my pocket and say, “Okay, I can take you!” She nods in agreement and we leave the building.

We get to the hospital without issue and the baby is delivered without incident. Then, for some reason, she asks me to watch after the baby while she is in the hospital after delivery. I say, Yes, and bring the baby home and put it to rest in a crib. My boyfriend and I then start tidying up the house, doing dishes and we’re really playful and happy.

Then someone from my past comes to the back door of the house. He’s let his beard grow out and with his jet black long bushy hair he looks a lot like Black Beard The Pirate. But he walks into the house as though he owns it.

My boyfriend looks him over and sees he’s somewhat a threat but also somewhat friendly and he gives me a glance so as to say, “You know this guy? You want me to get him out of here or leave him alone?”

I nod back and smile so as to say, “I’ve got this.”

I greet the intruder and ask how everything is and if I can do something for them.

He says in his gruffley but friendly tone that he heard I’ve been watching the new baby and he wondered how things are going and can he see the baby. I realize he’s there to check in on me but I tell him it’s no problem and we go up to the room.

We go into the room where I think I’ve left the baby and look in the crib and to my horror he’s not there. I shuffle my hands around the blankets and can’t find him anywhere. I look around the room to see if he’s in another bed and I quickly dart my eyes to the floor to see if he’s rolled out but there’s no sign of him anywhere.

Just as I’m about to admit to the terrible horror then I remember that there is another room & I quickly jolt out to check and sure enough, there he is sleeping as soundly as can be.

The intruder/friend smiles too and says everything looks like it’s going fine here and I say, Yes, it’s a big house and I’m getting used to it but all is well.

He says he’ll be going then and my boyfriend and I return to the kitchen to wash and play and laugh.

* The interpretation of this dream makes sense when considered in light of the idea of transformation. When there has been abuse or trauma in the past, it can show up in a variety of ways in a dream. In this case. an intruder coming into the space when it is happy and playful is a lot like the way abuse happens in real life. The intruder/abuser is all full of their negative thoughts, ideas and beliefs and they just want to fill the room with their negative words and actions. The other person doesn’t stand a chance against that high degree of negativity.

This dream shows the progressed state though because even though an uninvited intruder came in, he had a somewhat more curious and interested state, more friendly than aggressive. And what he found was that all was well so he had nothing negative to say and he left. This is what happens in real life when the target of abuse or the target of a narcissist overcomes the issues and develops new skills and capacities. There’s just nothing negative left for the intruder/abuser to balk at.

Another good sign of progress in this dream is subtle and only meaningful to me but I will share it so others will also begin to look to the very subtle and meaningful personal symbols in their dreams.

Many years ago, in about 2012 I started using the metaphor of a “mess” to think of the mess the divorce was creating in my life. A mountainous, messy pile of dishes in the kitchen was the perfect metaphor for my divorce and the left over messy behaviour fro the marriage. It was like I had to learn to leave a “messy pile of dishes” that someone else created and instead of cleaning it up I had to let them figure out how to clean it up. This was the metaphor.

Now, many years after the separation and divorce, this dream is showing me that the issues have gotten so much better that there are no longer any dirty dishes! Not only that, I am enjoying doing them and putting them away with someone I’m in a close personal relationship with and we have fun together putting the mess away.

This image brings so much happiness to my mind and heart and fills me with a sensation of warmth and love.

Intruders, abusers & negative behaviour doesn’t stand a chance in the warm & positive environment of a loving relationship.

That’s why I really like this dream and am happy to share it with others.

I hope in time, more people will also share their dreams here too. It’s just so great to share with others and keep growing all the time.