In the dream, I’m visiting a friend (who I don’t know in real life) and her home is Boho style and she works at a Waldorf School as a teacher. Although, at times in the dream it seemed we were kids again and she was a student. It seems we grew up together and I was remembering our childhood in the dream.
We go somewhere in the evening. It’s a large gymnasium or a small stadium and we’re in the locker room which is mostly empty except for my ex-boyfriend. He brings in a staff and asks her to point out which locker was Tupac’s. Apparently, Tupac had used one of these lockers & it was locked up so no one would use it but people took its picture and posted on social media and went to see it, like a shrine.
So she shows him which one and it’s close to the locker my ex had been using and I thought that was interesting. The staff opens it up and what I find on the other side is that there are no individual lockers at all – it’s just a wall of locker doors and then on the other side is just one big long shelf with no dividers and it extends really far into the wall. There’s garbage in there as though someone went in there to snack. It was like a cubby. There were a bunch of ice cream cones and a raccoon.
Then the staff leaves. We leave. We go back to the house. My friend tells me she likes what I’m wearing and I tell her I like her apartment. We turn on the music and dance.
In the dream, I’m a smoker, even though in real life I’m not. In the dream, I’m wearing a baggy jacket and have 1/2 dozen loose cigarette butts in each pocket but no full cigarette. I’m with a bunch of smokers and ask them for one and they all say they don’t have any. I say it’s okay, it doesn’t matter, I’m quitting anyways.
Then an ex-boyfriend arrives. In real life he’s an ex but in the dream I am still trying to salvage the relationship. I ask him if he wants to catch the ferry with me and go do something off the island. At first he disagrees but he concedes with my insistence and he even offers to pay.
I notice right away he starts taking photos with his phone which is a strange & uncharacteristic behaviour of his. He does it so much that he has no emotional connection or interaction with me at all as we wait in line for the ferry, board and start traveling. I see a huge piece of ice float down a river and point it out and he takes a photo and I hear him say, “This one is for you (meaning me)” and then he takes another one saying “And this second one is for you (meaning another woman)” and he sends the second pic to someone.
After seeing him do this 3 times I confront him with it. He doesn’t deny it. I say why didn’t he just tell me and we could have ended amicably. He said he couldn’t tell me. He didn’t want to hurt me.
So I tell him I’m not going on this trip with him and when the ferry stops I board a returning boat to go back home. He continues on.
I feel a mixture of sadness and relief.
When I get back, it’s too late to make it all the way home so I stay at an Air BnB which has a lot of others staying there too. Recollection of this part of the dream is foggy. It seems we were moving furniture around. There were a lot of people but I don’t recall more than that.
Last night, in my dream, I am sitting on a pier and tossing food to fish. A large 3 ft one that was also wide swam by and looked me right in the eye. It was comforting. I put my hand into the water and many fish came to eat the food from my hand.
What is the message of this dream?
Water in dreams is about relationships and life. Feeding fish is about the way I share insights and encouragement with others, especially when they share their dreams with me.
Positive dreams don’t need to be worked through the way negative ones do. It’s basically a message to just keep doing what your doing and have a lot of confidence that everything will work out.
Something interesting about this metaphor is that the last time I dreamed about feeding an animal, it was snakes, in 2016. At that time, I was surrounded by people who acted like snakes, full of jealousy. They were backbiting all the time and turning people against me in real life and using social media. When I had the dream about feeding the snakes, I took that as a message to not stop doing what I was doing. So I continued writing on the blog, continued learning about dream interpretation, continued setting and enforcing clear boundaries with the people who were hurting me publicly and privately.
Years later, in 2022, here I am dreaming about feeding fish now! What a better feeing! This tells me that I’m surrounded by people I can trust, people who respect me, people who share my positive vision of the future. I can keep doing what I’m doing and now there’s peace between me and the people around me. This dream signifies growth & progress. How exciting!
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