October 27, 2018
In the dream, there’s a lot going on. I’m outside in a large open space, maybe like a large family campground, something like that. The atmosphere is friendly and open. I’m walking from one area to another and then I notice a group of people have all started smoking. I say, “Oh, it’s time to smoke is it?” And I decide to join them thinking if we all smoke at the same time then it won’t bother the non-smokers as much because there’s no secondhand smoke inbetween. When I reach for my own cigarettes I discover they aren’t in my pocket. My sister is there to my left walking beside me and when I start looking for where I put my cigarettes she mocks me and says, “Oh Rachel, we’re smoking now, are we?”
“It’s none of your business,” I tell her and I walk away thinking about where I may have left them. I consider getting a cigarette from one of the other smokers but don’t want to appear that I have none of my own but also by the time it takes me to look for my own and I retrieve them then they will all be done and I’ll be smoking alone anyways. It’s like I have to decide to look foolish and ask for one or look foolish and smoke alone. I decide to keep looking for my own.
I find them in a strange room and I can’t recall the details of what made it strange but it was unusual somehow. Anyway, I found them and go back to the others and I have time to smoke while they are and we finish together at relatively the same time.