Daily Dream Journal: Water Dream

In the dream, we are on a large ship that is in wavy water.

In one part, there are these 3 pre-teens trying to cast spells on others. I walk over. Block them. Shield us. Divert their energy. And cause them to be distracted so they forget what they were doing.

Then when that is dealt with I go back to a main deck area and there is a tall, white guy who put his scuba rescue gear on to be ready to go help others who are trapped below. He utters a comment saying he’s going to fail a drug test because he wasn’t planning to be on call today. I say thank you.

He gets ready to dive.

I dive too. But when I leap I grab the hand of a man I love and we swim hand-in-hand down into the depths, even without scuba gear.

As we get to what appears to be the end, I do something and it causes a door to open up on the ocean floor and we go really deeper.

Then we nearly bang into a mechanical dolphin.

But we pull away and I protect him.

I love him so much in the dream. I feel like I would do anything for him.

We swim around the new area and the water is such a perfect temperature. There’s no water pressure and I soon realize we can breath under water.

It’s amazing. He’s amazed. I’m looking around wondering where to go next.

Snake Dream: Keeping Snakes Away

September 2016
My dream this morning – 
  • Gracie and I had walked a long way through woods
  • We both stopped to rest in a small motel
  • We slept longer than expected
  • When we woke up it was dark
  • I was texting a colleague about meeting up to go back together
    • They had expected us back earlier/Didn’t think we’d go so far
  • Gracie & I were talking about the walk back
  • I was sitting on the bed & she was standing on the floor
  • It was so dark I couldn’t see her but I could hear her
  • She said there was a snake & I thought I saw a python
  • But as she leaped to the bed I saw it was just a small garter snake
  • I told her about stomping on the ground and when we walked they would leave and I demonstrated by stepping loudly and the snake hid immediately
  • But I imagined the long walk we had a head of us, in the dark, wet & chilly woods and keeping snakes away
  • I knew my colleagues were close and we would make it back
  • But it was a little bit spooky to think about
 
This dream is about my biggest challenge right now. Everything in the outside environment seems relatively safe & fine, even when the snakes show up I can handle it & protect Gracie too. The problem is when I think about what is coming up I really spook myself out. 
In real life, I’m going to just have to take the step forward and give things a try and see how it goes.
 
oceanscubadivingrichardDear Rachel
The snake is not a big deal, which means that the change is not a big one.   This dream is about the fact that what you have been through in your transformation was much longer and tiring than you imagined it would be.  When you rest, you will be energized for the way ahead.

Fire Dreams: Putting out the flames

Fire Dreams: Putting out the flames

In the dream I am walking with a group. There are ducks in front of us. One doesn’t follow the crowd into the garage and leaps up into the trees instead. At first the others mock her but then they join her. She shivers in the cold but the warmth from the trees comforts her.

In another part, someone tells me there’s fire on my clothes. we bat at it to douse the flames but it doesn’t work. Then I drop to the ground extinguishing the flame and roll a bit. They go out without anyone getting harmed.

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Clothes in dreams is about roles. Fire is about enlightenment. I don’t know what more to say.

1008 Dreams & Solutions – CPS

2014/09/21
first day on a new job at cps
4 years in prep
camp owners preparing for the season
woman arriving to pick up a donation
riding in the car with J.H. –
his parents split and i was offering encouragement
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First day at CPS and I thought it went well. The boss seemed pleased but also dis-satisfied a bit. When questioned about this, he revealed that they prepared for this day for 4 years and it was the first day there was income generated so I admired his perseverance and all that he had invested in the equipment and building and staff to get it to this point. I could see he had hoped for just a bit more revenue than what came in but knew more would be coming.
I’m standing in a family camp setting. The directors are getting over-run and not finding joy in the activity anymore. I’m looking for a way to help and see nothing clear. Then a woman approaches me chatting about something or other and it becomes clear that I’ve given her bread every week for a long time and she’s come to pick it up. So I don’t know where the bread is for her but I now have a task to go for and know i’ll keep giving her bread so long as she keeps coming back asking for it.
I’m riding in a car/van with a few others and one is J.H. from elementary school, grade 2/3 ish. in the dream he has told me that his parents split up and i can see it has really devastated him. i offer some words of encouragement and kindness as i lace up my shoes (which remind me of skates). we arrive where we are going…it feels like cps…but am not sure.
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dictionary
cps – work that went well, work related message in the dream
boss/k. – authority
4 – strength
family camp – outside is outside myself…this camp was poorly run
impoverished woman – symbol of powerlessness
bread – the thing that kills me is the thing others “live” off of and is a symbol of life for them
car with J.H. – where i’m going is like riding in the car with him
J.H. – he and his family had a quality i liked and wanted when i was younger. his parents spent their money on developing youth-related projects in the community, when we were kids I saw he was the kindest one in the class and never said a mean word to anyone, but also i could not figure out how to be his friend….i know now its because i was the mean one.
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theory
these dreams were hard to recall, kept flashing in and out…it’s something that’s not easy for me to look at
the dream wants me to get to a place where i can see the virtue in someone’s action even when it is not displayed obviously or consciously by the person.
the problem is i have this belief from childhood that if i do something good or if i go for something good the results will be good. i am still like waiting for something good to happen, like johnny hirons being my friend. in the dream his parents split and this is symbol that what i remember as “looking good” doesn’t even exist anymore so I am “going for” a mirage. in order to advance in work and wealth i will have to give up this belief and the feelings and thoughts and actions which go along with it.
it may feel like a part of me is dying as i detach from that old belief structure that worked well for me as a child but is no longer useful. now what is useful is the connections made with people and offering encouragement is like giving people their daily bread. it is like keeping them alive. and when i can do that then i can see the true spirit of someone’s actions/virtues and not just the surface.
shoes like skates are like being able to glide easily on ice to get to where i’m going.
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practice & application
even when i write his name i hear a sing song, like “the guy who had it all” and it wasn’t in the way of “prom king” all, it was the way his parents helped people that was so wonderful. so this is telling me i wont’ get to my way of helping others the same way that they did. their way is divorced.
my way is by giving people bread which kills me and keeps them alive. that is the big problem.
From a spiritual standpoint, death of self is good, and that is how we grow and my spirit can say “ah! bread! life!”. so when applied in that way it makes sense and brings joys. But this bread symbol, in physical reality, has caused so much pain, suffering, fear, confusion, and harm…my choice would have been to never mention the word again, it is like that. so but it is very clear that i cannot just not mention it…that because others need it and are sustained by it it is my duty to share it, even though it causes me death at the very same time. 
 
where is the biggest issue with this at work right now?
 
there are two big issues where this applies, one work/Baha’i related and one work/school/ymca related. the old me would have wanted to solve the Baha’i thing first and in fact is easy and exciting to do that…but the new me sees i really am being asked to do stuff here at ymca in this role with S.H. and i really can’t avoid it any longer. write a letter to his psychologist, send my resume to his parents and the school, follow up with conversations outside of the class regarding 1:1 support they’ve asked me to give, and creating an IEP for SImon that can be implemented in the meantime. It’s really clear what I need to do next…a part of me is really resisting it….because it’s too good to be true, perhaps?
 
my fear is that i will do all this work to do what i’ve been asked to do and then either get another job and leave for the money or be offered money to do this job which is scary because it will mean things are working out in this new way of doing things. I am afraid of myself. what is the biggest fear about myself? 
 
the biggest fear showed up in the dream as the old camp directors running an old camp. i can say this brings up strong feelings of anger, powerlessness, in that someone had something so wonderful that they didn’t take care of and now there is nothing left to do to fix it, it just has to be let go. this fear is when i have worked so hard on something and then arrived and found no one was commited or the results were less than expected…which is like kenny’s feelings on the first day after 4 years of planning. 
 
so the dream wants me to get to a place where i can see and appreciate that even if the results are less than expected it is okay because it is just the first day (like starting in last place) and at least it was a start. 
 
really big emotion of grief comes up here and I just do the deep nose breathing to work through it…okay, going to go inside and sit with this…it’s a big one….tears….and laughter at the same time….
 
in my mind i can see so clearly what i can do for these documents with simon…but when i go to consider when during the day i would do this it feels so overwhelming….i do have time….and i do have opportunity to keep gracie busy with something/someone else while i work…so really i just need to do it today, this morning, so that it is done. 
 
This is the first time i’ve felt the “positive integer” feeling consciously…it came over me like a wave and i felt full and energized and capable to do this thing which feels scary but is really manageable anyway. 
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(This is the first draft of a book I’ve been working on since 2009, with a working title “1008 Dreams & Solutions.” It is a glimpse of one of the pages of the book – with spelling, grammar, and style errors! In time, it will be edited for ease of reading and included in a fully published format. You are invited to read it now or read it later. Your choice! This is an innovative way of publishing I like to call a “rapid agile release” meaning I’m thinking with agility and releasing a document with errors intentionally, just to get it out there. I’m letting you know what I’m doing so you are aware that I am aware it is “not perfect.” I’ll share here when the final draft is ready for publication and purchase.) 

How To Survive A Titanic-sized Change

The dream he refers to here about the Titanic was mine. Since I was in a big catastrophic event in the dream and was helping others that means in real life I can do the same. The spiritual quality is Resilience and practicing this quality allows me to stay calm even during crisis. In fact, the inner work I’ve done to flip negatives to positives helps me in every area of life and now I’m even seeing more and more how it even applies in work environments. All organizations want growth but not everyone wants to change themselves to get to the growth. They want it to be an external change. But in truth, as Richard explains here, when we work through our trauma or fears that is where real transformation can really take place. I’ll blog more about this soon.

oceanscubadivingrichardTHE KEY TO MAKING A BIG CHANGE IS TRANSFORMING A BIG CATASTROPHE

By Richard Hastings

Not too long ago someone sent me a dream about being on the Titanic and helping people in the life boats.   It got me thinking that unless you have lived your life in a protected bubble, we all have been on the “Titanic” at one time or another.    We all have had to face catastrophes, big huge tests, that we were not ready for at the time.   The Titanic happened partly out of arrogance which is quite common to a lot of human catastrophe, but even without the arrogance,  we are sometimes tested way beyond our ability to cope at the time.

If there is a positive side to the Titanics  that we have experienced, it is this.  The huge sea of negative emotion, usually fear, that the catastrophe leaves in your memory is a place where we can go to repeatedly for lots of growth.   I have no idea why the Creator chose to make us this way.  I just know that the big negative things that have happened to me like being fired when I thought I was doing the best work ever,  are the places where I can repeatedly return for sources of new growth.   Like every other human being,  I deplore it when catastrophe strikes, and certainly would never wish it to occur to myself or anyone,  but honestly,  it would be difficult to imagine big transformation without having had major trauma.   I think that there may be some people who can go for a great deal of change without being so challenged and perhaps there will be generations of people who can go after change without feeling negative inside,  but they are pretty rare.    Our tests are our greatest reservoir of growth.

How does it work?  It is pretty simple actually.  Imagine you were one of those  passengers aboard the Titanic steaming for America  when suddenly you hit an iceberg and the ship sinks.  You may make it to a life boat,  but what happens next.  The ego takes over and puts in a memory of the experience so that you won’t forget the horror.   You now have fear every time you get on board a vessel going for a long distance from one place to another.   Whereas before you traveled from one place to another easily, now you have fear when you travel.  Fear is like an extra passenger.   Inwardly, when you think about moving from one state of being to a newer one, a better one, you are hesitant because now you have fear.    What to do?

If you understand how to work with fear, then you don’t have to be afraid of it.   It is like FDR said. “The only thing to fear is fear itself.”   Instead of being fearful of dealing with the fear,  you can learn how to embrace it and use it for growth.    It is relatively easy also.   How does it work?    So lets say that the reason you were on the Titanic is that you were going to America to find a new life.   Now when you think about going for a new life, you have a huge fear of something horrific happening where lots of people die.  You replay the death of so many, then you imagine it happening again, and hold yourself back from going for it.    The thing you are supposed to learn, the new capacity, is lodged right in the fear.  All you have to do is find its spiritual opposite and you will begin to be transformed right before your eyes.   This really works.

What is a spiritual opposite?   A spiritual opposite is the inner process 180 degrees opposite to the fear in a positive direction and beneficial for lots of others.    Instead of being in fear that lots of people are going to die when you go for your new life and then holding yourself back,  the process you need to learn is seeing positive possibilities that bring new life and energy to yourself and others and then acting on them.    Most programs that deal with trauma don’t include the beneficial piece, but it is crucial, because it is part of human nature to be beneficial to others, to make the world a better place.    I venture to say that a lot of people on board the Titanic were seeking material fortune in coming to America, but that was not their true inner purpose.    They didn’t know their purpose.  They only knew the importance of economic survival.

When catastrophe strikes,  there is always a spiritual purpose that is at the core of the transformation.   That purpose will always benefit a lot of people.   When you get attracted to the true purpose, the fear no longer needs to stay with you in such an intense way.  You have to understand that our true nature is fundamentally spiritual, fundamentally transcendent.   The material aspect of us is only temporary.

Try looking at your catastrophes with new eyes, not something that you needed to avoid, but an opportunity to learn a new process that will benefit humankind.   The positive energy is in opposition to the fear or other negative emotion.

Here are some possible examples.

  1. The fear of being assaulted =  the fear of being assaulted comes when someone forcible (using their material power) tries to take something from you for their own selfish benefit.     Spiritual opposite- reaching out to people and providing a service that will benefit others using your positive capacities.
  2. The fear of losing a big game –  this fear comes when you are trying to beat someone else and get your esteem based on the win.   Spiritual opposite-  participating together with others for a positive outcome.
  3. The fear of the apocalypse-  this is the fear of really bad stuff happening that will destroy everything.   Spiritual opposite- finding positive things to do that builds and adds positively to everyone’s life.

Happy changing!