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In the dream –
I’m living in my new house
R.M. comes over
it seems we are going to get married
he goes into the other room
i follow him and then get really confused
I go back into the first room and speak to someone
in talking to her I recall things about what just happened in the other room.
i realize he had invited others over and sets up a voodoo-thing
invites me into the room
at first i think it is interesting because the leader
cuts the cord between a husband and wife who
were divorcing and the man was set free to
live his life.so i thought it was good.
but then the people surround me
someone i don’t know is walking around me with
eyes like hypnotized speaking non-sense words
and putting face close to mine
then R. holds my left arm down and whispers
repeatedly in my ear “killing…killing…killing…killing” seemingly 50 times
he said “chop chop chop chop” like he would chop me up, or like I would be
forced to chop someone else up.
i’m trying to block out him and the other person at the same time.
when i talk to the woman about this she is sitting on a chair
comfortably, bright window and tall plants beside her,
she is so comfortable and she seems to know what to do about the situation.
i am a bit afraid because i think he trained me to be a killer or that he was going to kill me.
I realize he now knows where i live and he lives across the street down a few blocks.
the woman has lots of ideas for how to regain safety. and she goes about the house
showing me things. Like for example, we vaccuum up some item he left behind
and then throw out the vaccuum. and while doing this i listen to her words
carefully and learn a way of speaking which protects and comforts me.
she trains me to speak in an encouraging way.
at one point, i sit down at a table with someone who in real life i wanted to marry in high school and now just find him an interesting character. i open up a window beside the table. cool air blows in and he wraps himself up and shivers and wines a bit like a baby. i like the fresh air and don’t want to close the window so i hope he will warm up but he stays chilly so eventually i close it for him.
i went back to preparing the house to keep it safe from invaders. she seemed to believe it could be done and had such confidence about her that i believed it could be done too.
it seemed at one point he came back to the window and because of what we had set up he could not get in.
he went away. he could never come back.
– my house – something about my Self
– a memory of someone coming into my house with a different agenda
– whisper in ear – hearing, metaphor for ?
– gazing in eye – seeing, vision metaphor for ?
– voodoo – an old practice which no longer has influence to assert ones will over another
– jacket in vaccuum – vaccuum uses air to clean
– M.G. – a person who needs a lot of nurturing, support
– open window – fresh air to every part of my body, cells, mind
– preparing the house
nightmare – a time to do powerfully positive things
the powerfully negative memory is of someone over-powering me who was so different than me
someone getting into my Being and then manipulating me to do what they wanted even when it was against what i wanted.
then being “brainwashed” to hurt myself and others as well.
what i like about this dream is that my house was clean and for that reason we were able to use what was already there to set things up very quickly so he couldn’t come back again. it felt powerful.
application and practice
what is the biggest issue?
the worst feeling was when i was talking to the woman and realized i had been tricked.
where in my life TODAY might it be useful for me to remember this successful strategy for keeping people who tricked me out?
Today I will be talking to a lawyer to request legal aid to support me in establishing a court order for child/custody support.
I will also be hearing back from someone regarding approval for a car and loan and today or tomorrow will hear back from someone regarding an areobics/dance instructor role i auditioned for yesterday.
I will also be trying to get through to Canada Revenue Agency regarding their letter to me saying I applied for EI afterall and they should have been paying me since Februray. But their “deadline” has passed for me to accept this claim but I’m going to see if the lawyer can still help me recover some of that money.
Also, I received an eviction notice and court date for Oct. 17 yesterday and it may have just been something that got crossed in the mail when i was late on rent because as far as i know the payment was made for rent and i have caught up…but maybe something happened on their end that prevented payment and now they want to evict me. So I hope the lawyer will help with that too.
so today is about being positive to take all these steps towards establishing financial stability.
what does the message of the dream have to do with any of this?
Maybe just that through the course of the day, I might be receiving lots of information which may be emotionally charged for me and make me feel dizzy or confused. It’s reminding me to stay focused on what I know how to do which is identify an invader, get them out, and keep them out.
The powerful positive opposite of planting negative messages in the subconscious is clearly speaking powerfully positive messages consciously.
Where in my life today is the biggest negative where i can be powerfully positive?
I stand to lose a lot to day…or gain a lot….the biggest attachment is to…..
apartment – stability for Gracie
need for income
children I work with
need for a car
joy of dance
protecting grace (living in a safe home for more than a year –
i do not want to lose this place for her sake!)
business opportunities emerging
believing something good is coming
feeling overpowered/over-whelmed by the loss/gain of all these things
What can i do to prepare for the emotional ups and downs of the day?
create an email system to myself to just send information, updates, reviews
so that whatever i need to come back to later i can
email the LSA reps to alert them to the new eviction notice
get through the day as best as i can, get groceries, cook fav. meal no matter what happens.
see it as a playful journey on the way to something better