When I woke up this morning I was crying. I was laying on my right side and a tear was coming out of my right eye and sliding down my cheek. It was 2:41am. I can’t go back to sleep because of the feeling of sadness but I have three amazing dream images which are so good. Even though at the moment I don’t feel the happiness associated with these dreams which I will write about in a minute, the fact that I dreamed them gives me something to hope for and look forward to.
The dream I had right when I was waking up was that YouTube was running a contest of sorts, and I had gone through the first four steps. When I completed the fifth step and submitted my video application it was reviewed and I won. I won something that was like a life-time subscription to making YouTube videos and having millions of viewers. In the dream I was so happy, it was like my version of winning the lottery. I was so relieved. But then I woke up and was crying with sadness.
In the dream before the YouTube one, I was in a bathroom of a friend’s who I grew up with. For the past decade I’ve dreamed about this bathroom being under construction and always sort of feeling trapped in it. Last night when I dreamed of it, I found the construction was done and the things in it which were strange, like the light switch, I was able to figure out. I really had the feeling of overcoming something which used to be so uncomfortable.
In the first dream, I was in a room with a lot of people, most of them were First Nations friends. I was watching a respected elder talk to others in a line. He would occasionally reach out and touch their left ear. He would hold the lobe and say something. One man approached the elder and there was a little bit of an exchange – I got the impression that the younger man was having a hard time with one of the teachings and the elder was trying to teach him.
Eventually, the younger man got in line and allowed the elder to touch his right ear lobe too.